Monday, October 29, 2012

Retired Blogger..!

It's freaking 6.30 in the morning.. >(

It's been ages since I have woken up this early (on a non-college day!).. But whenever I have, it's always been for something ultra-crucial..
Unlike this day; which, in the history, holds nothing as pertinent that would require my arousal at a time this odd.. (No offense to Mr. John Glenn who returned to space this day back in 1998. But I don't find a spaceship waiting for me anywhere around, then why am I up paying a tribute to him? :/)

But then, I haven't really woken up this early even today.. I haven't actually slept the whole yester-night..! O_O Yes.. My eyes wide open as this.. Owl's eyes..!
Searching for a sacred path, on this dawn, me, a long-lost blogger, retired to blogging when I realized I just cannot do anything else.. :(

An hour and a half ago, I went to bed feeling all gratified about having studied a chapter and yet feeling so crisp, making plans on how worthwhile I would make this next day when I wake up, and here I am, writing this not so worthy post for my ancient blog; instead of going for a walk, or enjoying the balmy weather from the terrace kinda stuff, which I would want to do when I cannot wake up in the mornings! All so in my Utopian world..! :)

I know every-time that I write a post, I dart stacks of assurances that I'm gonna continue writing then on etc.. And each time I fade away without any news.. (I wonder if anyone even takes notice of it! :/)

And then I think about my lost blog (mostly when I cannot fall asleep).. Hatching up word-by-word what I'd write next, all in my mind.. Wondering if all this could directly get posted in the blog (all from my mind!), without me actually having to slog through the keyboard and trying to make it look appealing (only to my eyes!).. Fancying if my fellow web-developer friends would ever design such an app that will enable me to have soo many posts with no efforts at all?? And then my intelligence would give way to self-realization.. That, "Nahi, kabhi nahi banayenge aisi app. Pehle hi kam jhelti hai kya duniya mujhe, ki aur itne posts kar saku koi chahega??!! :O " Mean world..! >(

And... All of a sudden I feel so side-tracked.. Was I even there on the tract?? 'Cause I have absolutely no idea why am I writing this post..?

- Is it a come-back?? (Oh, Don't worry people, it can't be.. I do think a lot about the well-being of this world, so I'm gonna spare it from this torture.. :))

-Is it for me to get bored of my own blabbering and fall asleep?? (O_o Well, this is some food for thought!) But, even this ain't working.. 'cause I'm still raring to go, wide awake O_O  ..
No wonder if you're sleepy..! You sustained it soo far?? Gosh! People these days, i tell you, have bumper leisure time..
Me, a Retired Blogger, who won't sleep and write such posts; and You, Keen Audience, who would diligently entertain such posts..! :)

M glad to have such "velle" onlookers..! :)
You inspire me to write moree...! :p
Such a refreshing start for the day..! :D

Adios people..!
Time to wake up..! :)

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

It's All About Priorities..



'Cause some individuals are sooo Heartless that they dun realize how Important they are for some other people..
Or perhaps, a more likely cause would be, how they DO realize that they are being valued so much yet they clearly lack those sentiments of warmth & generosity.. Maybe these terms are far more sizable for the infinitesimal folks around me.. What indeed is wanting is a sense of Concern, Empathy, Love and so much more..

Is it that difficult to have these basic instincts towards your amigos??

It ain't something I've felt today.. X number of incidents.. With different people ('cause I'm blind to not able to recognize freaks & get attached to 'em again & again) or the same lucky individuals (whom I keep giving another chances for the sake of those idiotic attachments).
The sequel of all of 'em leading to an empty and futile battalion of thoughts, theories and judgements..
It's all a vicious circle.. You are (or maybe Just "I am"!) doomed to get trapped in it..

One after the other these clashes teach me something overly fresh yet not long for this world.. That I've got to live as a free bird, 'cause that's how I'm destined to be.. With "No Strings Attached".. But I bet you, 'Destiny loves fooling around'.. Or rather, more convincingly, 'My Destiny is so well-equipped with Catastrophes that not even serendipity has a chance'..
And I'm NOT sorry if you can't make out anything outta this entire sardonic post.. 'cause I give a damn to what people wanna make out of my words, actions, or silence.. As however Unambiguous I've been so far, no-one understood (or even tried to do so!) how I feel..

Just wanna abridge it all by saying that, 
"If you can't see how I treasure my pals(maybe you're one of 'em), you don't qualify to see me.."
And that 'might be' (mind it!) my bad.. But call me all those crummy names (stubborn, attitude, rude or wateva) now..
I do NOt VaLue U AnyMore (all of 'em who are on my mind right now, making it DiSGusTiNg, just STAY AWAY..!!)